263. Impostering & a Glimpse of Home {LC's Journey 40}

More of my inner journey. During my outer journey. This is reflections from my journal. On August 9th, 2022. One thing I never thought I'd learn is how it feels to be ghosted. I never thought that would happen, but why would I. I would never do it. Last. Hope. Um, cross through my mind today that maybe he's in the hospital or something. That's like a little bit, a lot. But like we come up with all these reasons in our head for why something is happening, the way it's happening. When we want it to be another way. Don't we. Very strange to have such beautiful thing said to you, and then pulling away more and more until nothing. It really does feel odd. But what are you going to do? Love and live. That's what. That's what I do. Here's the little glimpse of home. I still think. I'll find a home in or around Fort Collins. But I haven't been east yet. I'm just so grateful. I'm getting to home more frequently. This ordeal has been making me think though, I send texts to others. And if I don't hear back. I mean, how often has another friend of mine ghosted me? It doesn't bother me. I just figure they're busy or missed it or something. What's the guy. I think it's different because one sex and two, I asked if he wanted me to text less or not at all. And he responded to please keep texting. So I feel a reasonable expectation was set up. Here's another thing that's happening. People are dropping out of my membership. This reiterate the idea that I want to quit it. But the few who are more active, make me want to keep it. And I'm in the middle of teaching a workshop on being home in yourself and watching home form around you. And I can barely get and stay home. Imposter much. Now I also know how strong imposter syndrome feels. The thing is, I know we all struggle with what we teach. All of us. And I said something else about someone. And a situation that I don't want to share with you because it's not mine to share, but I said, We all operate on our own programs. And I think that's a really, really. Exact line. We all operate on our own programs. Let's remember that. Right? Tamara was the last day. I'll be alone for several. It's such a strange way to live this complete unsteadiness. Finding study. In myself.'cause that's the only place it ever really actually is. Take a moment. Steady is actually within you. And if you can't find it, go directly to your root. Breathe into your pelvic floor. Watch it. Experience it. I imagine it expanding as you inhale. I'm floating back towards center as you exhale. Let's do that for awhile. That's where your study is. That's where your home is. You got this? Just like the rest of us. Go to Laura, christine.us to connect with me. Book yourself a session and or support the show until next time I am sending all the love. And then some more. We'll talk again.