260. My Real Fire Experience {LC's Journey 37}

I'm going to tell you a story today to give you some setup and context for the next part of my self discovery in my journey. During my travels. So we're going to have to pull it back, like quite a ways to, I believe. 2017. I think it was December 14th. My then husband Kent and I were living in Kailua and a studio in front of a home, uh, in front of a house. the day before we were watching, maybe. Some kind of holiday show or maybe Rick and Morty, probably Rick and Morty or something like that. And our cat puked. Our cat puked up a praying mantis. I was like, whoa. you don't eat. Those are, you just killed a praying mantis dude. Nice. Fast forward to the next day. I had. A holistic chamber of commerce meeting. I was in this like holistic chamber of commerce thing on Oahu. And we had a meeting. I remember. There were. does Zinn's. Dozens of these little dove birds, not pigeons. There are smaller kind. These little dove birds sitting on all of the carts outside of this. Health food store called down to earth that we had our holistic chamber meeting at. Naturally I go into the store and I get some dinner for myself to have at the meeting. Oh, and I just. I saw all of the birds. I noticed them. No big deal, like whatever. I just saw these birds. Okay. So. Go to the meeting. Get home. I have no idea what I did that night after I got home. I just remember. Going to bed. Go into sleep. Waking up. Two a. Sound like. Glass breaking, not shattering, but like popping. Woke up to that sound. And I thought, oh, maybe somebody dropped their. Recycling bin or something. I was sleeping really hard, so I. Woke up. And I looked at my clock and I saw that I was 1135 and I think I went to bed at like 10 40. So I was kind of like, seriously. I don't even get an hour of sleep, but I'm already waking up. Thanks. And so I kind of just doze my brain back down and go to sleep. But then I hear it again. Louder. And it startled me. And I thought maybe I should check out what's going on behind my place. Which would have been in the laundry room area. Which had a door outside. It was a little, it was almost like a little tiny room. The door was outside the house between our studio and the homeowner. Like the regular house. And I go to our big sliding doors. Look. Toward that direction and just see this glowing orange. I opened the shades and I see fire. I am afraid of fire. This is my legit literal reaction. Holy shit. Kent. We got to go now, get out. So I grabbed my bathrobe and I head toward the door. And then he grabs the fire extinguisher. And goes outside and tries to put it out with it, which. It was too big. By that time, there was no way. That was going to work, but I'm like, no, no, this way. Cause. I mean, I'm like freaking right out. But then. I didn't grab my phone because that would have been smart. Instead, I go back. And I opened my closet. And I'm saying, I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Because I know from when I was a little kid that when there's a fire, you just get out, you don't take anything, you leave everything, you just get out. I took my guitar because. I'm not sorry. Uh, if I don't have my guitar. I basically don't have my soul. So I'd rather die in the flames, then lose that. Not that I couldn't get another guitar, but like, you're not thinking logically. One death is upon you. Typically. So I grabbed my guitar and I went outside. And as I was going outside. This is a tangent. This is a side note arsonists like to watch what they did. Just FYI. Cause yeah, that fire was lit. Five fires were lit that night. Luckily, our home was the only one where we had to cut power and move out and totally remodel. But. I mean for the homeowner. That sucks. But luckily the other four fires were small and could be dealt with very easily. Anyway, I saw a guy. I'm running. Toward the fire. And I was just like, Not thinking at all. Plus I didn't know that, oh, this guy probably lit the fire. So I just went out to the street, whatever. Our landlord was a old lady. So my husband, my husband at the time. Tried to go find her. And. Long story short. There were more people at that home than there normally are. And everyone got out. Everyone was fine. I'm going to stop myself right here. And let you know that there's a lot more to the story. But I spoke for quite a while. So the rest of it is in the next episode. Where I talk about. How it affected my nervous system and how. What eventually sort of broke. The tension down and out and how I released the trauma really that this fire created for me. That is coming at you next. I am so grateful that you're here. Thank you for your patience as I am reconsidering how I'm doing this podcast and what shape it is evolving into. You are absolutely. More than welcome to help me keep the show going in the way that it's meant to go. At Laura, christine.us. You can donate to the show there. Or you can also set yourself up for a session if you're feeling like your nervous system is a little bit tapped and. you're looking for clarity or a mindset shift. Or simply a way to come home to yourself. That is my jam. Helping others be home in themselves, which is such a beautiful and freeing. Place to be. Until next time I'm sending all the love and then somewhere I don't know when, but we'll talk. Again, That's a promise.