259. Big News

Today. I had no episodes in my queue. Ready to go. I knew the episode I was going to be putting out. And I started recording it. And then I realized that. I was putting so much pressure on myself to get the podcast out. That I was becoming anxious. That's not very fun. So. I put the podcast aside. And I went for a walk. I processed some other things going on in my life. To help me feel like. Everything is good all as well. Everything's going to be okay. Everything is right the way it is right now. The big news. As that I don't know. If I will be doing this every day or not, I probably won't. I'm going to be starting grad school for mental health counseling. And frankly, the reason I wanted you to do a podcast every day for a thousand days was to get really good at podcasting. But because of the time it takes to get really good at podcasting. And to produce a good episode. Do you make it every day? Isn't allowing me the time and space to actually get really good at it. I have to just keep pushing out content. I'd rather not do that. I'd like to push out. Quality content. And I'm not saying that what I've put out so far, isn't quality. And what I am saying is. I want to spend more time with this. I want to be able to spend more time with it. To feel like it's. My baby. And not just a product of it's like I'm manufacturing. It it's like a manufacturing. And this is a live take. I'm not going to edit this because I'm putting it out today. So no editing, I'm putting it out. And it is what it is. Maybe that's maybe that's the most beautiful thing that I've ever done. That's fine. I want to do. What I want to do. And I have a perfect episode for episode 1000. So. I still aim to produce 1000 episodes. However I made choose a different angle. Thank you so much for being here and listening. I appreciate you so much. I appreciate you with every fiber of my being. And I'm looking forward to seeing how this evolves along with the rest of us. Come home to yourself. That's what this is all about. Me being home in myself is not manufacturing. I'm a creator. I'm not an assembly line. Person. It's just not who I am. It started to feel like my podcast was on an assembly line and I was simply one of the people that was putting it together. And I, I can't do that even though I'm really the only one putting it together. Doing all the parts takes a long, long time. And I love when I have interviews as well. But they come on and talk and I do everything else. So I'm going to take the time and space. I need to produce episodes that I feel are worthy of. 100 ways. Of course they all are. I know there's a judgment there. That's fine. I'm going to leave you with that today. Thank you again. For shining your light. Even in the darkest spaces. Even within yourself. Until next time. I am sending all the love. And then somewhere. We will talk again.