232. How Do You Know You're Home? {with Sam}

This whole podcast is about being home. In myself. And. I hope. If you listened to yesterday is you're going to. You're going to laugh when I say, I hope I'm actually doing my best to take that right out of my vocabulary. So instead of saying, I hope I'm going to say. May you always be home in yourself as well. May you always find your way home to yourself? May you always realize that no matter where you are, you can be home in yourself. And the point of this podcast is to remind you of this and to get you there. At least a little PCU. Home home. Home. What in the heck? What is home? Is it a place? Is it a feeling. Is it a person. Is it. Uh, knowing. The more, I work with this energy of being home in myself. The more, I'm realizing that it's a state of being. Where. Knowing exists. I don't think that home is. Uh, knowing. I do think that. When you are home. The knowing is there. Another topic that. Came to me in conversation with Sam. Is how we felt or how we knew. Our respective homes. Places that we live. We're home. How did we fail? figure that out. Find that out. No, it. So we had a discussion about this. And maybe it will help you. Recognize what home feels like to you as well? Let us know here we go Okay, Sam. You recently moved to this area? Right. Like after I did, I think. I moved into my house on August 2nd. I moved into this apartment on July 7th. Of 23, right. How did you know. That's where you were meant to be. Well, I was looking for. Uh, house to buy. I have been looking since. The year before pretty much, I like this particular area. the foothills of new England, and. I grew up. Going to my dad's best friend, just down the road from where I found this place. But you asked me, how did I know? So after looking at all these different places and like trying to convince myself. On a couple occasions, like, yeah, this is the place, but then like just hemming and hawing until somebody else bought it because it wasn't the place. And I knew, you know, I just knew in my heart. Oh my God or something. That wasn't the place. And I was getting a little desperate. I'd been staying with my parents, which is like a nightmare at 42. I spent a couple of days looking at. Some really good potentials. None of which. Had that. Love at first sight kind of like, oh my goodness, this is it. There was somewhere I looked and I kind of thought maybe they would be, and I raced to go see them and then get there and be like, oh, So you were hoping. I guess, yeah, I would be, it would be hoping that this thing was like, yeah. What the pictures were, And then I'd be disappointed because hope is a mistake in that way. I shouldn't, you just go without any expectation. I guess that's another thing. Hope is some sort of fucked up expectation. So I've been like at two other places that day. I was on the phone with my best friend when I pulled into the driveway of the place that is not my house. And. I just knew it was like I came home. I took one, look at the place and I was like, this is it. everything about it was exactly what I was looking for. Even though I hadn't made any real. From like list of. The answer is, you know, this is what the thing has to be. There's a very small. Kind of. A femoral list of things, you know, I'd see something be like, oh, I really want that. But then, you know, it's see something else and be like, oh hell no, I actually really want that in a. But what it really, what it came down to for me was like, The dirt road that it's on. The way that it didn't look. Particularly nice. It wasn't like. Austin In any way, it's just this. Little ranch. It's not little, but it's just a plain ranch. There's nothing. Wild or crazy about it, um, until now, because. Until now. and then there was that there's the wind turbine tower, which. I didn't even realize it was something that I needed in my life, but now that I own one. I am so happy. In that moment of pulling in. As I started to realize what my list actually was because here I was now looking at my list, even though. I didn't own it. I just knew. I knew, I got out of the car. It was just confirmed further. Because of the way it felt. And I looked at this plain little house and I said to myself, this is exactly. What I want. I made the decision right then and there, And everything else that followed my choosing. Was exactly. It was exactly it. You know what I mean? It all worked exactly the way you should think it would. Um, so, what is it about those moments? Look like. Keys us in a way that we feel like. The sort of magical thing has occurred. We are diving into this tomorrow, and I'll also share with you how I felt. When I knew I was home. Here in Vermont. Thank you so much for listening to this. Did it resonate with you in any way? Have you had this sense and this feeling. Before, where you feel like you're kind of trying to force something into being, But then you get Lackadaisical about it. Because. It's not it. you know, in your body, it's not it. So. You decide not to force it. You keep tending your garden no matter how hard it is, no matter where you are. And then you let things unfold for you. What does that process look like And when's the last time you did that. And what was the big thing that you got out of that, or that came from it? And just because I said, what was the big thing? It doesn't have to necessarily look big to the rest of the world. But these small things sometimes are huge in our lives. Share it with me at Laura, christine.us. Until next time. We are sending all the love. And then some more. We'll talk tomorrow.