169. {LC's Journey 24} Where Am I?

Welcome to 100 Ways. This is your daily exploration of self and soul. I'm your host and fellow explorer, Laura Christine. Let's dive in and find our way home. So if you find my journal and you read a. That's a problem, except after I am dead. If you find my journal and you read it, that's not a problem. My question is what's the difference. I'm going to read some stuff out of my journal because. It doesn't matter. This is from April 11th, 2022. I'm still in California. At this point, I know that I'm going to have my car. And I know that I'm going to Utah. And I'm still like what's happening. I was questioning a lot of things. So I did some automatic writing. It's a different kind of automatic writing. It's the kind where you don't even pick your pen up from the paper. My late great aunt Jean taught me. I love her. She's. Truly the most incredible woman. Oh, my gosh, she helped me a lot. At the end of her life. And, I guess in the middle of mine, I don't know how long I live, but. We'll find out later. Here's what I wrote that day. I am not sure what's going on, but I don't feel like I'm in the right place. which begs the question, where is the right place? And if I'm not in it, Where am I. Where am I as possibly the best question you could ask and if you're okay. Not sure about that part. But this is automatic writing and my soul was speaking and that's what my soul said. So there's this nothing matters. I don't give a shit. I want to stop again. I just want peace. I just want comfort and peace and life has never been that for me. So what do I do in order for peace to be here? Or where is the right place for feeling peace? I feel like I'm waiting for something to happen for me to feel that sense of peace. I feel. Obligated to do something, share something, make something, give something. I feel like I need to keep doing, giving, creating, sharing. And I don't want to, because when I do, I feel a sense of frustration. That what I want or expect it doesn't happen. And if I'm doing something with expectation, then it's not a good time to do a thing. All right. That's all I have. That's all I wrote. Obviously I was feeling a little bit frustrated. And. Misaligned I'll say, because this next page in my journal, I wrote something really cool. This is on four 20. Of 20 22, 9 days later. I had just worked with a client. I was coaching at the time and she totally set herself free. It was amazing. And then I had another friend that I would love to have seen set herself free. Part of what was stopping her was children, which is logistics. If the soul is saying, set yourself free. You're going to come up with all the logistical excuses, not to. But the soul is not going to change its mind because the soul just knows. What's right for you. So here's what I wrote. Soul has answer always logistics, take our attention away from the soul and that causes tension. Soul integrity equals alignment. Alignment equals no tension. So if I'm feeling tension about something. Like, the date that I'm traveling or whether I should post something or text somebody, something. I don't do it. I wait until there's intention any more. And sometimes the urge to do it goes away. Tension is nothing but a fight between ego and soul. Only soul is never fighting. Tension is ego's attempt to dissociate from the soul. The soul's flex is that everything we do is to bring ourselves into alignment with it. At some point tension causes a snap break fall. Surrender. We will all come home. Go to buy me a coffee.com/ 1 0 0 ways where you can book yourself or reading with me. Or support the show in any way you feel called. Thank you. So absolutely very much for being here with me. Until next time. I'm sending all the love. And then some more. We'll talk tomorrow. Thank you for exploring with me today. I would love to continue this conversation with you. We can do that at laurachristine. us. You'll find contact in the menu or you can go to laurachristine. us slash contact and you'll be taken right to it. Let's dive in a little deeper and see how fully we can flow with the duh.